Not A Sexy Panda, A Tired Panda

There’s this cute little song my boyfriend and I found like a month ago called the sexy panda song and if I weren’t at work I’d post it along with this article. I’ll have to add it when I am off of work. I don’t feel like a sexy panda right now. I am just a tired panda and I’d do anything for some time off and a bed. To be honest I think my depression is just getting worse. I am working all the time and no matter how much I try to sleep I am always tired. And you know that’s the thing that makes me so mad. I wake up in the morning and I am still so fucking tired. I hate being that way. I wish I could go back to how it used to be when I could sleep for such a short time and be perfectly rested. In high school I’d sleep for like maybe 3 hours and I’d be fine with all that I did. Now I get like 6 or 7 and I am yawning all day.

I feel like such a failure. All I really want in life is to just be happy and make Kreg happy. But I know I’ll never be able to make him truly happy. We are a revalving door. Each of us is only happy when the other is. Now we’re both just struggling. More later I guess. I have to get back to work.


~ by alicechick on May 6, 2012.

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